There's a ghost in my brain.

she tells me secrets

about haunting strangers.

Twisting my thoughts

she whispers deep breaths,

holding my imagination captive

I lose myself in her words.

Its all around me.

surrounded,

as a desperate plea

crystallizing my eyes

clouded

foreshadowed misery.

She lifts the veil,

drawing together pieces of time

lost in-between the glances.

a mirror-

fill of reminders

pulling myself away.

She switches my brain

like static on the radio.

fuzzy misconceptions race

too many memories,

breaking my senses.

I hear it loud and clear:

please meet me on the other side.

But she won't let me go

They said “choose to be happy.”
Like a switch
To be turned off.
As if I could find a time machine
To another time
When I was chasing stars.
Running barefoot
On beaches
In-between breaths
Waves of memories
Crashing,
Pounding,
Drowning my fears.
Or a melody on the radio
That could lull me to sleep.
Then discover
A guardian angel
To remove the storm clouds.

Words float like notes
An orchestra of what ifs
Rise
And
Fall
Unreachable.

Doubt is anything but easy
When you cannot choose
What to believe.

Denial is a heavy misfortune.
Born out of terror,
She drags her feet like branches
Freshly cut from an oak.
Created by the air-a fire blasts her home
drunk with fear, shame, and obligation.
She's a bastard.
Not because of no parental control
But divided.
Encompassed by another world
Where stars don't burn-they move
Churning focused strongly upon empty faces.
Gracious time between movements
She runs faster, longer, and more determined
To be released.
Longing to let go of these feelings
The past holds her like handcuffs against the wind.
Pressure unrelenting, suffocating
It lingers like burnt hairs.
Creating marks on her body.
Wounds.
Opened-over and over again.
She whispers to the air
"Why"
But it can no more answer her
It can't remember the meaning
Or the feelings.
It needs to end.
Lifting her body across the rocks
The barriers,
The stars,
She lifts the weight
and throws it to the sky.

I walk brick by brick down city streets.

Bouncing soles between sunlight

Soaked in defiance.

Reaching,

My body slowly shifts.

Faces turned from each other

Hands that never meet

Fluttering-

Closely kept within pockets

Gripping cell phones

Avoiding the present moment.

I smile,

Looking into the abyss

Arms embracing the open air

Shuffling steps-

Walk to run

Run to walk.

My legs slide among the ambiguity.

Taking the lead,

An open dance

surrounded by strangers-

I am at peace

Alive,

Humble,

in this brief glace

of life.