i am shattered within the blood around me
focusing only on my souls well being,
not my heart
for as much as i yearn for love
it abandons me, leaving me yet again,
speechless at your door

but i am still knocking within you.
wiping away the blood off my face
for i see you
but i alone choose to be silent,
unwilling to pursue it,
i just sit as my heart bleeds.
for no blood now can replace any feelings of happiness

paper dreams.
i assemble them in the night
with you,
within the moonshine,
shaking together the black and white comic strips
laying on the roof.
i create magic wings for a cat
that swoon the mouse's ear.
i unfold a fairy,
crystalizing my feet
making me dance with the fireflies.
this origami game
a little man once whistled down my throat,
directing me
into a radiant colored fire
of obsession.
i create
i control
only what the stars command.
watch an open iris jump from a yellow box,
a crane kiss the slippery fish
and the rose,
grow faster than i can create thorns.

these black hands
whisper a life i knew nothing about.
like wishes to be seen,
inside a paper bag.

there is an ocean of you
raining down upon the rooftops.
driving backwards, I see the four conners of my mind
fogging up
leaving a dusting on the review mirror.
nothing to guide me-
but i can still see you.
yes,
very very
clearly now.
a rainbow slides across my sunglasses
blinding the very essence of my existence.
each sweaty palm
radiates parcipatation.
a black light
left on over night-inside a dream
and in this dancing relfection.
a cat
walks the line
between
you and me.
can you see
what she sees?

i blink,
the rain stops,
as the shadows lead me home
into the ocean.

my mind is the age of 32 years, it just looks 7.

sometimes i sit and think about it.
the winding turns of spark plugs and jingling bells,
even the joint lock and position of each memory grain of sand.
it surprises me about how dejavu occurs in the strangest ways,
a 5 seconds movie playing in your sleepy head, means so much in senses.
subliminal messages waver like a radio's flipping static
buzzing away at the soft eye lids,
the pressure dilutes the color creating the black and white mask.
the glossy finger prints piece of the puzzle into a digital time frame,
some linger as if, possessed of enlightenment.
all so strange and wonderful at the same time,
we only remember that one image,
maybe a purple gum ball,
rolling out of the machine.

the moon

sometimes i lie awake at night
wondering why the stars are hiding from the moon.
and if the mysterious tapping at the window sill
-are the relentless chatter of fairies and goblins
always ringing through my ears.
but these things softly change.
like the expiration date
printed on the back of your hand,
fresh to sight and sound
but sour to the ear.
these unanswered questions
become enigmas
buireid deep within a grain of sand
on the bottom of the ocean floor.
silence makes the glitter fall
and once again i am in desguise.
running from the clouds
my eyes turn grey,
focusing at what is left
of the dim moon.

the mind of a child

destination nowhere
running through the wide fields of rushing water
waves of thought
dangling like wires
sparking a moment
like watching fireflies whizzing bye

this strange place
where time is only what is
not to be
like the rain
drops of wine
from golden grapes
stream
to the
silver plated ground

silence
engulfs your sanity
the pieces of your mind
broken
your eyes dont help your soul
find an answer

but,
you free the chains
of mind
bond by bond
searching
inside the mind
of a child

i will always be,
inside the mind
of a child

lost within you

am i shallow,
or are you too scared
to swim in the waters beneath me?
pour me out
from the inside
as the shadows linger
and you're still waiting.

where are you going?
walking along the beach
the stick passes through the sand
pressing deeply
like your hand against my stomach
creating letters,
dreams,
moments of-
rain,
filtered through screens
hung across the sky.

cursed screams pop the bubbles.
a voice
so strong,
it coos.
a whisper overlays the land
and i am gone.
lost thoughts
and blinking eyes,
dots like stars
plusing.

i wish you knew
i am lost within you.